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Complications of Love

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To be honest, I don't think I've ever been in love with someone....

Love is such a complicated emotion.  I should know.  If I remember correctly, I've fallen in love 7 times in my life, and none were real love.  Every feeling fleeting, every affection passing.  I never truly loved a guy for more than a year.  

Want to know why?  Because I always find someone better.  Someone who could make me happier, or so I think.  The first time it ever happened I nearly had a mental breakdown over the confusion.  I couldn't tell whether or not leaving my boyfriend at the time was the best thing for me, or whether I just needed to suck it up and stay with him. But in the end I decided that my happiness was important, and that he would agree and understand.  He did.....after a while.

But now I think I finally found "the one".  No, for your information, I am not currently with anyone.  The last guy I dated broke up with me because of fake infidelity, and by that I mean he created the whole theory just to give me a good excuse for him to break things off.  I've been single for about three months now, and I haven't liked it.  My best guy friend, who I've known since we were practically in diapers, has been nothing short of the best friend I've ever had since my ex and I split.  He's brought me chocolate and ice cream for comfort, listened to all of my complaints and rants about the guy, let me cry on his shoulder, and made me smile once I did.  And now, I think I might see the truth behind it all.

This can happen, right?  A girl and a guy who've been friends forever can date, right?  I guess these days guys call it "getting out of the friend zone", but is it really possible for this to happen and for nothing to change?  No awkwardness, no looking at the other person differently, no harsh feelings if things were to break off?

NO! I don't want to risk that.  I can't risk that!  With all the other guys, it was easy to cut myself off from them because I didn't have that great of an attachment to them, but my best friend? My partner-in-crime? I could never survive if things went bad and I lost him.  I could never forgive myself if I was the one to destroy things like before.  I can't do this!

But wait, isn't life about taking chances?  At least that's what I get out of YOLO, even though it's the most stupid phrase ever to be invented by man.  But isn't life about going for what you want, even if it could end up badly?  I want to try, I really do.  I want to see if things were truly meant to be that way.  Because if they were, and I never tried, then I'll never be as happy as I can truly be.  I have to find out if he really is "the one".

Yes! I'm going to do it! I'm going to try! No matter what, at least I'll know that I tried.  That's what I'm going to do! I'm going to do it!  

Good Luck.
Well, this was a creative burst I had. I always get one every now and again, and not always at the right time, so a lot of the stories never make it to DA T-T

But this did! Not sure if I did well, so some advice would be great :).
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DaAggeAgneta's avatar
I really liked this one. It really feels like the thoughts of a unlucky romantic girl. Please, continue to write